God’s Love is Enough

I was raised in a household where love was neither shown nor given.  At times, it was hard to navigate my emotions because I was taught to suppress them. When I felt like crying, I was told, “Don’t you dare cry.” As a child, I often felt confused and, early on, decided that love was just a thing I read about in romance novels. It was not something I would actually get from anyone, maybe I was not deserving of love. I often called out and wrote letters to God, asking why I felt so alone and unloved. I got no response, but I kept writing because it gave me a feeling of being heard and loved. 

When I gave my life to Christ in late 2017, I was broken, hurt, and in pain. But being in close contact with the Living God created a space where I was finally accepted and loved more than I could have ever envisioned. I kept reading his word and attending church, and for the first time, I began to feel alive as if God saw all of me and was healing my hurts and mending my broken heart. I felt complete joy because I knew he loved me just as I was, broken and in pain. 

1 John 4:12

No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us.

The more I learned of the character and attributes of God, the more I let down that wall I had built around me and allowed the Lord to wrap his arms around me and tell me softly how much he loved me, no matter what I had done. 

1 Corinthians13:4-7

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 

There is nothing I want more than to continue to stay close to him and keep accepting his love. 

As time goes on, I am healing within and becoming who God has created me to be. All my broken pieces have slowly mended; they don’t define who I am in Christ. I now realize that God’s love for me is enough to take away all of my pain. I was always worthy of Love.

Now, I understand that some people have a hard time showing love, maybe because they did not receive it as a child. I want to encourage anyone who is finding themselves feeling unloved or unseen. Sisters and Brothers, God sees and loves you beyond what you can imagine. His love is eternal and forever; even when we sin, he still loves us. 

1 Corinthians 13:8

Love never fails!

Lord, I pray your love can and will fill each area of my soul so that I may extend that love to others who have also been unloved, even if it’s those who have hurt and betrayed me. Amen.